Can't stop eating.
Fuck, fuck.
I want to throw up.
I think I might, involuntarily.
I fantasize about ideals and absolutes. Bodies that can't exist, governments that only work in theory. Purity. Extremes. That elusive end of the spectrum that only exists in your mind. Skin and bones in perfect, fairy-tale alignment. I'm obsessed with the idea that everything, everyone, exists on a spectrum. This blog details my journey to the better end.
Hi... by throwing up won't you be losing even more control? i know you can get back on track, just stop beating yourself up about everything first. you can do it :)
ReplyDeletethe only good thing about losing control, is feeling so bad there is no choice but to gain control again
ReplyDeleteWe all slip up, I'm just glad that you were able to realize it enough to post here, so I can only hope that was enough motivation to help you stop. Stay strong!! I know you'll be able to get back on track.
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